kiba-inuyasha

Again, I find myself with my mind somewhere else, well with someone else. It's so weird being in this state, and seeing how when I thought I was in love a while ago (with my blonde curse), I wasn't. I was just obsessed, with the idea of getting her on my hands for a good. But certainly, I was not in love. Now all my defenses are down. All that I worked on, trying not to get hurt like I always do, gone. But I'm happy, I like this state. She got me up, well she appeared when I was just giving up, and hell she did it good. I've got so much to thank her. I was blindfolded by the pursusit of trying to get the blonde chick, that I did not reali

I've always thought bad about myself, and about what I do. Not my fault exactly; there's always a person behind each peoples problems, and mine, well it was her. But I'm not gonna talk about her tonight. I've been so afraid of falling in love, of feeling again, that I rather go here and there, just seeking pleasure, to fill the gap with sex instead of love. I've lost my trust in people, why not just having a free with everyone instead of trying to get more serious? why? These asre some answers I don't have. Just hoping that someday someone will come to me, make me fall in love again, and this time, she won't break my heart again, maybe sh

My dream place, my fantasy place: a mountain inside an island, where you can hear de waves breaking into the rocks, where you can hear the breeze whispering. Inside, there would be a lake, a beautiful crystalline watered lake, being born in the insides of the mountain, falling in a waterfall; surrounded by dozens of trees, but leaving enough space for the peak of the mountain to be seen. Aside from the mountain, there would be kilometers of plains; just plain plains. In the spring and summer, it'd be green, only grass, green everywhere. And in the fall and winter there would be snow, white here and there, nothing more. The same...the first

I'm afraid you've changed, that you are not the person I once loved. I'm afraid of your new thoughts, of your new outfit (and underwear too) that you are not anymore the innocent girl I liked and wanted to corrupt so bad. My biggest fear is to be in love now with only a memory. That you will never be that same girl I thought I knew. That you've lost all that made you be yourself, just to chase a stupid goal, a stupid, superficial goal. You have no fucking idea of how shocked I still feel. How fucked up does it feel like being a total stranger again, just because a couple of months. Not knowing anything about you anymore. I wonder...how cou

Experiences....experiences and things that happen can change us; partially or totally. Everything that happens to us has some repercussion in ourselves. Sadly, or at least for me, the experiences make me change in a bad way. I eventually will end as a bitter old man because I think love does not exist (even tough I don't want to). Because thats what is left of all my latest experiences with it. I have learned not to trust anyone, because everybody, without exception ends up stabbing you in the back, even without realizing, accidentally, so lately I've made myself two ideas: 1) do not love, try not to like anybody who you are not completely

And now it's my time to wether let go and leave or keep on trying, try to make you fall in love, to make you have no other option but loving me; it's gonna be a hard thing to do, but maybe I can make it, maybe. What should I do? Everyones tells me that I should just get over it, thus, it's not that easy when you're in love with someone; I tell myself that when you leave people that care for you, they come back...but this is not the case. I know you wouldn't come back. And theres this one person, totally wounded because of that we call love, that tells me to keep on trying... You don't have any idea of how I don't wanna leave, even tough I ha

So in the end I'm here again...the doubt, questions, my head is killing me....was it the right thing? Whats gonna happen now? Heh either way I wouldn't want it to be other way. It was worth trying, I had nothing to loose anyways. But looks like it's almost impossible for me to get the answer I am expecting....just would like you to remeber: take a leap of faith; you have nothing to loose, you've had many good times with me and (I hope that is true) and I can make you happy. Yes, I know you've been told so many times before and not being true (but that's what love is, am I right? falling and getting up again), but I will make my best to see y

o I went to try one more time and confront you. I don't know why, I just wanted to talk. Thinking the thick ice wall between us had gone away, I gave it one more time. This time, I was greeted by a snow dessert, with a horrible breeze hitting my face. As cold as you usually are with me, I decided to leave it alone and just leave, but I could see your shape in the distance. It was nothing but an hallucination. You were not there completely. The breeze turned harder and this time my skin started to get cold. I was being hit by little snowflakes. This snowflakes full of memories, of desires, things I wouldn't get back again. Even with the dif